The hardest mile i ever had to walk was the one away from you.

Friday, August 20, 2010

Love is an act of endless forgiveness

Do you know how exactly I feel now? The least thing I expected you to do is to cheat behind my back but you did. Do you know how afraid I was? Even while talking to my friend on the phone my whole body was shaking. I can't believe for the past few days while you texting me, you'r texting her too. I cant believe when you didn text me yesterday night the whole time you were texting her. I cant believe while you were with me and constantly checking your phone was because you'r waiting for her message. Your words are all lies. None of them are true. You said it was Zard, but no, all along it was you who's communicating with her. You said you didn message anyone ytd but no, you were msging her. You even messaged her in the morning just to say good morning to her. I don't see you doing that to me everyday. You only knew her for barely 3 days and you can tell her, "yes I like you a little"? For this past 3 days both of you were intensely texting each other, morning afternoon night while I was kept in the dark all along. Should I thank Mr Jana for confiscating your phone else right now I'll still be a fool, you'll continue cheating on me and in a blink of an eye you'r in a relationship with her. You even agreed to meet her just now when I asked you to come to my house. All these while you were only playing with my feelings, toying with me. You don't even take me and our relationship seriously. All your words are simply excuses, lies. You say you love me. If you do why would you even do all these behind my back? Why? If you love me why did you did such things to hurt me? Approach a girl, asked for her number, message her everyday asking her what type of guys she like and after that confessed to her? If you dont love me, dont intend to start this relationship again, tell me. Don't do all these to me, because at least I know I dont deserve all these hurt, pain and tears. Why am I even crying so hard now when you don't seems to care? I called you just now all you said was NO NO NO and denied all the way. Even when I asked to meet you tomorrow you dont want to. Its obvious you dont dare to face me and explain everything clearly to me. I'm a human, a girl I have feelings too. Seriously, you dont know how I'm feeling now, how badly you hurt me right now at this moment. Tell me, what should I do now? I really don't know. Each time you raised my hope you would crush it so badly after that. I can't believe all these while you were only toying with me and wasnt taking me seriously, you were cheating behind my back. I don't know besides her are there any other girl. You said you didn message Clara, but you did. How am I supposed to trust your words. Cheating behind my back is so much worse than you ignoring me and leaving me. Really, if I can I just feel like jumping down from my window. You don't know how fcuking bad and deep you stabbed my heart this time round.

Posted by ♥ Jolynn at: 8:30 PM